What are you willing to give up in return for this dua? 

Asalam aleikum loves 😍😍, 

Alhamdulillah..thanks  to Allah’s s.w.t blessings upon us all.

I can’t sleep. ..its been a night of anxiety and distress.I’ve prayed and I’ve released myself from any possible guilt before sleeping but I just can’t get sleep😢.

I want it soo badly I can’t sleep. I want it since its a very important part of my life’s plan.I want it because am convinced of its goodness to my life and to the ones I love.I want it and that’s why I can’t sleep. ..am anxious. ..I need a way to get it .

Finally I give up on sleep and I grab an article online about working hard in everything we want.Ever read those articles that you feel like the author had you in mind while doing them 😂😂. ..yes…it was one  of those.

So am done reading the article and jotting down points but still…I can’t sleep. I can’t read anymore and I can’t just sit here staring at the walls at 3am.No way. 

So I decide to talk to Allah and actually explain to Him why this is important. ..I know. .I know He knows what’s best for me….but I still wanna do this explaining thing and thus is when it dawns on my nafs. ..

Are you sure you deserve what you asking for? ?

And what wring can you give up just to have this in return? 

What wrong would you quit for Allah? 

What if you had to exchange a good deed for that dua??

What would you do girl??



Always your girl

Droplets of emaan 😍 

Fatma ibrahim 

Manage the damage! ! (Journey back to Allah )


**I believe in jannah series **(Journey back to Allah)

It’s Tuesday evening and I sit on my bed trying to gather enough inspiration to get me to my prayer mat….sadly …there’s none…

I have been feeling too sinful to do this.Am scared of making more promises to My Rabb about fixing me.

It’s been months of trying and out of nowhere…am back to square zero and I hate it here. ..

But today. ..instead of escaping to bed…I want to sit up late trying to refix me…”I can’t just watch my heart harden just like that,”  …a famous quote I use on myself. 

I come up with a strategy, …a plan I hope that will work…”insha’Allah insha’Allah. ..” I tell myself. 

I feel empty. ..I feel lost. …I feel pressured by the world…unhappy. ..depressed. ..uninspired  ..and sick of myself .

But I noticed one thing for sure…I believe in jannah…I believe in Allah s.w.t. ..I believe in Muhammad s.a.w.w….and this alone..is enough reason for me to keep trying. 

I make a sound decision start fixing me…starting now…no more tomorrows …no more ‘in an hours’…it’s now that I’ve got. ..and I’ll use now to fix what’s fixable..

…an hour later. ..

I smile as I completed my ish’a prayer. …alhamdulillah.  .to new begginings….

. “O my sons! go ye and enquire about Joseph and his brother, and never give up hope of Allah’s Soothing Mercy: truly no one despairs of Allah’s Soothing Mercy, except those who have no faith.”
Surah Yusuf verse 87

Allah is merciful try Him today,tonight and right now.He got you!!

Always your girl 

Droplets of emaan. .

Fatma ibrahim 

Cheers 😘 😘 😘 

Jazakallah khair 

Success duas in the Qu’ran 

Asalam aleikum loves..

Apologies for the silence but am back.And am definitely here to stay insha’Allah. 

Ever thought of success and anything taht would bring it to you.

Someone shared verses that touched my heart.and I figured why not touch yo heart yo today…

Its jumuah…

26.Quli allahumma malika almulki tutee almulka man tashao watanziAAu almulka mimman tashao watuAAizzu man tashao watuthillu man tashao biyadika alkhayru innaka AAala kulli shayin qadeerun

Say: “O Allah! Lord of Power (And Rule), Thou givest power to whom Thou pleasest, and Thou strippest off power from whom Thou pleasest: Thou enduest with honour whom Thou pleasest, and Thou bringest low whom Thou pleasest: In Thy hand is all good. Verily, over all things Thou hast power
27. Tooliju allayla fee alnnahari watooliju alnnahara fee allayli watukhriju alhayya mina almayyiti watukhriju almayyita mina alhayyi watarzuqu man tashao bighayri hisabin
“Thou causest the night to gain on the day, and thou causest the day to gain on the night; Thou bringest the Living out of the dead, and Thou bringest the dead out of the Living; and Thou givest sustenance to whom Thou pleasest, without measure.”

Al-imran 26-27

Always your girl

Diary of a Muslimah

Fatma Ibrahim 

Ya Allah. …save me…save me from my soul


Assalam aleikum warahmatullahi wa barakatuhu
It’s been ages . Apparently I didn’t wanna blog this ramadhan. I wanted to try different routines so as to change something about me that I can’t stand. (Ain’t telling though )

With no special story in mind. ..today am the topic.,you are the topic.

Sitting in the office, late morning and as usual am struggling to be awake. Most of the time remedy for this is sleeping, but my boss is around hence I decide I’ll distract myself. I go to a colleague and I pretend to have a question for her.
You must be wondering why am asking her…well am still on that 3 month probation before you get your long awaited job opportunity. And Mrs Boss had insisted I could always sort help from anyone but mostly her.

Automatically, as we women something gets us together. We all know if you wanna know if someone is your true girlfriend. .on the vetting list…her gossip must be tasty. And at this I gave her a 9.
So back at it.She gives me that eye that she has something she’s hiding and immediately we start a mini – war with me trying to convince her to spill the story.
But just before she did…inside me I really didn’t want to gossip today. Not in ramadhan. ..no not this month…I don’t want to spoil my slate. …
(Still inside me lives a devil that flourishes with gossip. )And clearly that devil never gives in easily.

As we know we all have this weakness we can’t stop….so I let her spill even with all the fear inside me.I tried to act like I didn’t want more but I did..more and more and more.
In no time,it was lunch hour and I sat hopeless on my praying mat trying to compose a prayer that can make my Rabb forgive me. I was embarrassed of myself and felt soo unworthy. ..I just needed my Lord.

And my Rabb tells us

“O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allah . Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful.”
Az-Zumar 39:53

It’s hard to convince yourself that there’s forgiveness but there is. ..And he can forgive all of us …provided you regret, admit and promise never to do it again.

More than anything I’ve learnt this ramadhan is my soul is my enemy. My soul  makes the devil accomplish things.My soul. ..my soul. ..my nafs. ..my nafs.

Ya Allah save me from my nafs…save me Lord save me…

Saum maqbul sweeties,
always your girl
Diary of a muslimah
Fatma ibrahim
Cheers 😘

From the girl you trying to impress 😞😶

Assalam aleikum warahmatullahi taala wa barakatuhu .
I hope this blog finds you in best of health by Allah’s mercies. I’ve missed you ..I really have even though you believe not…alhamdulillah am back 😊

I don’t know,  they keep saying 21st century men are loosing it.Well others seem to have it together but damn..I see and hear things sometimes and I come back home wondering what ‘pleasure’ lays in some actions they do.
And who would speak to them for them to get the message?

To adam,(a character from an islamic book am reading on wattpad;changed)

Back to my letter;

To adam,
       I know you are about to freak out on receiving this letter but eazy man,I had to.
Well ,from at the back of the class where weirdos and shy people sit at in class sit at.I always notice how you once in a while steal glances of me.And I don’t blame you,I also find myself soo pretty  (on a lighter note😛).By the way, thanks alot ,through your expressions I can tell how good I look sometimes. Haha..

Before you get me wrong,this ain’t a love letter .I wish it was but no way…serious matters first.Well,am nervous. ..I don’t know how to start but I have to dare my guts on this.No matter how bad the outcome might be.

Masha’Allah you have one of the most adorable  eyes I’ve seen.I like how how your complexion just compliments the eyes. (All girls in school go nuts about you , you know ).I totally pray to have you in future but in a different state.

I know I got you mixed up on what I mean. Well, that day I caught up with you in the washroom with a syringe and I could already see how  often you do it through the scars…that day man, I didn’t sleep.Been trying to figure out how long you’ve been doing this?and how I could help you stop it ?what makes you do that?

By now I know well how good you are at avoiding this questions.So I’d rather not start.Today in this letter I want to let you know that whateveryou going through, it can always be solved using the Qur’an and ways of rasul (s.a.w.).I doubt you are the first in anything you going through. And trust me you’d never be the last. Sit and seek help through ways that will bring healing to your soul.
Drugs just give us temporary solutions that are always  hurtful and regrettable.Look at everything situation as a test to bring you close to Allah s.w.t and not further.
I can tell you are a kind soul through small acts I see you doing. And I can’t relate how this soul that’s kind to others can’t be kind to itself.
Seek Allah s.w.t. ..seek Him when in need and seek Him when contented. Happiness of the soul comes always from the connection with our Creator.

Enough lecturing ; Please pass me your history book.I need to counter check my notes before the exam.

Al baqarah 2:45
And seek help through patience and prayer, and indeed, it is difficult except for the humbly submissive [to Allah ]


Always the girl you admire secretly ,
Sophia the wierdo

Btw ramadhan kareem in advance sweeties.

Fatma ibrahim
Diary of a muslimah

A wind of fragrance, a woman’s story told during isra…

A Wind of Fragrance, A Woman’s Story Told During Al-Isrā


There are great lessons to be learned from the sacred Night Journey of the Prophet ﷺ (Al-Isrā). From those inspiring lessons is the story of a blessed woman that Jibrīl (may peace be upon him) narrated to the Prophet ﷺ during The Night Journey when he ﷺ experienced the smell of a nice fragrance, which he then inquired about. She was the woman who used to comb the hair of the Pharaoh’s daughter, whom he killed because of rejecting his false claim of lordship, and worshipping Allah only.
The Hadith in which this story appears has been graded sahih by senior classical Hadith scholars such as, Al-Hākim in his Mustadrak, Imam Dhahabi in his Talkīs and Ibn Hibbbān in his Sahih.
There is a great lesson in this story regarding the virtue of patience and steadfastness when facing oppression and tyranny for simply declaring faith in Allah. For this reason we find that in Sahih Ibn Hibbān this Hadith is mentioned under the chapter heading: What Is Necessary Upon A Person Regarding Steadfastness Upon Religion When There Is Engulfing Oppression Upon Him.
It is the very stories like these that remind us that we are not the first–and won’t be the last– of people who are tested with prosecution simply for believing in Allah. Allah ﷻ states, {Do the people think that they will be left to say, “we believe” and they will not be tested with trials and tribulations?!}. (Surah Al-Ankabūt 2)
Here follows the authentic narration as it appears in Sahih Ibn Hibbān:
Ibn Abbas (may Allah be pleased with him) reported:
Verily the Messenger of Allah ﷺ passed by a nice scented wind of fragrance during The Night Journey (Al-Isrā). He said, “Oh Jibrīl, what is that scented wind?” Jibrīl responded, ” that is the scented wind of the woman (and her children) who used to comb the hair of the Pharaoh’s daughter. Once upon a time when she was combing the hair of the Pharaoh’s daughter, she dropped the comb from her hand. Thereupon she said, “bis-mill-lah“. The daughter of Pharaoh said, “You mean [in the name of] my father?” She replied, “Nay! My lord and your lord is Allah!” Pharaoh’s daughter then said, “So you have a lord other than my father?!” The woman replied, “Yes, Allah!” Pharaoh’s daughter then said that she would inform her father. “Okay,” the woman responded. The daughter then informed her father and so he sent someone to bring the woman before him. He said to her, “Do you have a lord other than me?” She replied, “Yes. My lord and your lord is Allah.” The Pharaoh then ordered that a brass cauldron be brought, and then it was heated up. “I have one request from you,” the woman said, which the Pharaoh agreed to. The Pharaoh then began throwing her children into the cauldron, one by one, until all that remained was a breastfeeding infant. The infant spoke to her saying, “Oh mother of this child! [referring to himself] Remain steadfast for verily you are upon the truth!”
Ibn Abbas said: four people spoke in their infancy: The son of the woman who used to comb the hair of Pharaoh’s daughter, The companion of Juraij, ‘Īsa, Son of Maryam, [Ibn Hibbān said], “And I can’t remember the fourth one.”
(Mustadrak Al-Hakim 2/496, Sahih Ibn Hibbān 3126-3127)
Regarding, “the woman who used comb the hair of the Pharaoh’s daughter..,” Tafsir Ibn Kathir (4/395) has a slightly different version of this story which states that the woman was the wife of the Pharaoh’s storage keeper.
Regarding the woman’s statement,” I have one request from you,” it does not mention in the narration of Sahih Ibn Hibbān what her request was. However, in the narration reported in Mustadrak (2/496) it is reported that she requested, “Gather my bones and the bones of my children and bury them together.”
Also, in the narration of Tafsīr Ibn Kathir it states that the woman was actually tortured prior to having her children slaughtered:
So the Pharaoh tortured her; tying her hands and feet. Then he sent upon her serpents for a number of days. One day he returned to her saying, “Will you give up?” She replied, “My lord, your lord and the lord of all things is Allah.” He then said, “I will slaughter the child in front of your face, if you don’t retract!” She replied, “Do as you wish,” and so he slaughtered her child in front of her. (Tafsir Ibn Kathir 4/395)
Regarding the child’s statement, “Oh mother of this child! [referring to himself] Remain steadfast for verily you are upon the truth!”, the narration in Tafsir Ibn Kathir mentions that the soul of the infant spoke to the woman after being killed:
Then the Pharaoh killed her last child in front of her. Then the child’s soul said, “Be patient, oh mother of this child [referring to himself]. Verily your reward is such and such from Allah.” (Tafsir Ibn Kathir 4/395)
Interestingly, in the narration mentioned in Tafsir Ibn Kathir an additional part of the story is mentioned. It states that this incident was the very reason why the Pharaoh’s wife, Āsiyah (may Allah be please with her), accepted Islam and was then killed by him for doing so. The narration states:
Then the Pharaoh’s wife heard the speech of the eldest child’s soul and thereafter the youngest, and thereupon she became a believer. Then Allah took grasp of the gate keeper’s wife’s soul [referring to the women] and then revealed  her reward, degree and level of honour in Paradise to the Pharaoh’s wife so much that it increased her in faith and certainty. Allah then made the Pharaoh aware of her faith. He said to a group of his people, “What have you come to know about Āsiyah, the daughter of Muzāhim?” They replied in praise of her. He then said to them, ” She worships other than me!” They then replied that he should kill her. Thereupon he prepared for her a crucifix then tied up her arms and legs. Āsiyah (may Allah be pleased with her) supplicated to her lord saying, {Oh my lord! Build for me, in your presence, a house in Paradise}. (Surah Al-Tahrīm 11) Coincidently, the Pharaoh walked in upon Āsiyah smiling–because she could see her house in Paradise. The Pharaoh said, “Are you’ll not astonished at her madness. Verily, we are torturing her and she is smiling!” Allah then took her soul to Paradise, may Allah be pleased with her! (Tafsir Ibn Kathir 4/395)
Let us reflect and take a lesson of patience and steadfastness from these noble women of Allah. It is the stories like these that remind us that the people before us were also prosecuted for merely uttering the name of Allah. Thus, do not despair the heart because of what the eye experiences of oppression. It was only by the grace and mercy of Allah, that He removed the veil from Āsiyah and showed her the bliss in Paradise which indeed was the reality. The test for us is to build that level of faith that keeps us remembering that undergoing hardship for Allah’s sake inherits the exalted rewards of Paradise. Do you believe?
May Allah bless the steadfast women of this dīn and the believers in general. Ameen!
*In the narration of Mustadrak Al-Hākim it states: The Messenger of Allah ﷺ said, “Four people spoke in infancy: this child, the witness of Yusuf, the companion of Juraij and ‘Īsa, Son of Maryam (may peace be upon her).

August 3, 2015 by Ustadh Abdus Shakur Brooks 6 Comments